Yeah, this is all rather surreal for me. I'll just be upfront and get that out there.
It's so strange you are going to be here so soon now. Roughly five weeks (March 20th is your mothers due date). Could be less, could be more.
To say I'm anxious to see you would be a ridiculous understatement. I've wanted to be a father for a little while now, but I was willing to wait it out because your mother wanted to be 'ready' to which I would tell her, "you can't ever fully prepare for kids" but I was willing to wait regardless.
Then fate, or God, or some other force decided it was time now.
I didn't complain, trust me, I wanted to be a father.
I can't explain the feeling that was inside of me about wanting to be a father. It was something I can't say it words. It was just this primal, to my core feeling.
Your mother was told during a doctors appointment last year, or maybe it was the year before, that she would need help to get pregnant and that it couldn't happen naturally.
I can't lie, that news hurt me inside. I felt like there would be problems. I felt pain at the fact that I could possibly never have a child of my own.
Adoption would be an option, of course, but no matter what anyone tells you, it wouldn't of been the same. You wouldn't of had my King/Boettner blood flowing through you veins.
That's something you will come to find out is I am very much a family orientated person, and as such you most likely will be too.
For the things my father lacked, teaching me how to stand up for myself and my family wasn't one of them. He taught me family is EVERYTHING. When people come and go in your life, it will be your family that will always be there for you.
My father and mother (your grandparents) will always be there for you. No matter what happens in your life, you will ALWAYS have someone there at your back.
Your family is your army and we mobilize if we are threatened in any way. Remember that, don't use it as a weapon, only as defense.
I know this is a little scatter-brained, but thinking of everything I want to teach you, like my parents taught me, is just running through my head at once and with so many thoughts I forget where I'm going with certain things.
Too many head injuries! You're mother will tell you, I'm sure, many times how forgetful I am. Count on that.
Onto your mother, she is going to probably be the most loving and caring person you will ever in your life know. I'm biased in that fact, but to me, she is everything. She's not blood family, but she married into my family and so she is just as good as blood.
Your mother is my best friend, I have other best friends though. My brother, your Uncle Kelly (no matter what anyone tells you it's also a boys name!) is another one. Hopefully your mother and I can help you out and do for you what my parents blessed me with and that's a brother, otherwise known as a best friend born into the family for you.
Your Uncle Kelly is quirky and he will do and say strange things, but trust me you won't want anyone else to have you back. He is someone you can trust your life with as I have many times. I've never second guessed him when he said he had my back and you won't have to either.
You Aunts (Heather & Erin) aren't to be messed with either. They will, also, both have your back and always be there for you, take my word on it. Aunt Erin will be there to verbally abuse whoever messes with you and Aunt Heather...well lets put it this way, I shutter thinking what is going to happen to any girl who breaks your heart.
Be careful who you choose as friends and who you choose to let watch your back because you never know when you could get stabbed (not literally, but figuratively). It sounds harsh, but the only way to learn this rule is to live and learn, no other way around it.
You are going to find that there are some people in your life that you couldn't do without and truely do love. There are also going to be people with which you could do without. If you are anything like me you will be fairly good at choosing who to have around and who to not have around.
I would like to think I am going to be to you what my father was to me and that's a guide and someone that will always be there to tell you how to be a man.
I have faults, but so does everyone. I can only help you the same way my father helped me and that's by my own life experiences.
I didn't go to college, I don't have a high class job, and I don't have a lot of money, but I'm happy and I know how to treat people and defend myself against others and how to defend my family.
I can only hope I do as good a job teaching you the ropes of life as my father did with me. He wasn't perfect, and neither am I, but he knew certain things that no one else could teach me about growing up and being a strong person, working hard, and doing whatever you have to do to make things easier for your kids.
I hope to do the same thing.
I can't wait for you to get here so I can begin our journey together, you already make me the happiest person on the earth and you aren't even born yet.
I just wrote this off the top of my head on a whim, so I know there are things I've forgotten, but one last thing is brace yourself for a wild time, our family is a little crazy, but you'll love them, because I do.